I have known you Sifu for quite some time, And the time I have known you and when we was able to have one of our many talks. I know you do not lack love in this life, for your life for life of others, the art and just life itself. I see not the jerk you say you may be. Hush that talk. It is an expression nothing more, not a true state of your being.
Others couldn't see this at times, when they come in contact with you, love you and wish to be apart of you. I know most of what happened then, the spirits can tell me the rest of the story.
There can be only one true love and passion in ones life. It is for others to understand, to be considerate; and if truely loving, would see and support that and not be selfish in intent to steal away such a love. I know there is a certain weight on your shoulders, anxiety and somewhat of a desperation in fact due to that weight bearing down always on your mind. You need not the understanding of that to know, you already know, sometimes just takes a good kick to clear your head sometimes.
I look forward to speaking together with you again as we once did Sifu.